On ne voit bien qu’avec le couer. L’essentiel est invisible pour les yeux. - Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Monday, September 8, 2014

Poolside - Harvest Moon

I'm not sure which moon this is, but tonight is a super moon, and I believe the last of the year. I keep thinking back to the waxing moon last night as I jumped into a backyard pool for a midnight swim with a handsome Hungarian from Slovakia while we watched the monsoon clouds build up above us. I especially like how his accent lilts my name. "JennEEfer." It reminds me of living in Germany as a young girl, when my life experience was still sweet and there was no sadness or loss, yet, for how he pronounces my name is what I heard when addressed throughout the villages and towns we traveled. My life is still sweet, but there have been some extra sour patches. I agree with Jason Lee's character, Brian, in Vanilla Sky: the sweet is never as sweet without the sour, and I know the sour.

Do I ever know the sour. And I know a lion's share of sweet, too.

Mr. Slovakian Hungarian and I are, in fact, a bit of a mismatch. And, although I consciously phased myself out of the May December infatuation of older men once I hit my early 30's, this one sneaked up on me. And in over three years, I have not felt a pull to a man as him, and although I wasn't anywhere near ready for a skinny dip, under that rising full moon, I jumped right in. And, as I explained to my friend, without anticipation or explanation, and for however brief or whatever length of time there is, I will be present, in the moment, and enjoy the company and enjoyment of this man for the sake of him, as a person, and not anguish and fret about whether or not there is "a future."

Happy vibes.

Cheers to remaining bikini days (and nights). And Monsoon Mondays with Super Moons. 

Sunday, June 15, 2014


 From my first, too-big-for-my-face, coke bottle thick, PINK glasses I got at the age of 8 to the eye therapy to retrain a "lazy" eye, a brief (failed) venture into the world of contact lenses, I am a chick who wears glasses, and do so with pride!